Wednesday, March 7, 2012

The Decline

Its never easy to start a new post like this, even while I wait for blogspot to sign me into my blog desk (usually takes a while due to slow internet) I somehow get myself all messed up on what is to be written.

Well anyway, I'm currently going through a flat patch now where all parts of my life is affected. More importantly, I don't feel confident in myself at all which does really sucks when I'm trying to get my sales pitch going again. Even my sales figures are dropping off the ladder which is really demotivating to say the least.

I not really sure why but I just somehow find myself not clicking with anyone this couple of weeks. Even with my best friends, at times I feel like I'm the odd one out. Feeling all out of place and low on confidence, I proceeded to reject most of my meet-ups with friends for the whole month. Yeah you heard me right, I sorta locked myself up for the whole month. It's best to say I don't feel comfortable being with anyone other then myself.

It's bad to the point that I actually deactivated both my fb and twitter accounts for a short period (well, no one notices anyway) and kinda kept myself away from people. For one, I do realize I am a little bit of a weird person (not sure but I bet you do too) but I don't know, its just me anyway.

You might advise that I talk to someone as it might make you feel better. But more often than not, I don't even know where or how to start. I used to have friends whom I can talk to about my problems but I do realize I probably need to sort it out myself. No one really realize how deep my problem goes but well, who am I to say, life goes on anyway.

This is when you'd just wished you had someone who understands you but for myself, I'd prefer to keep it all here.

Problem person I may be, at least I'm not bringing about trouble to anyone and that for me is cool enough.



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