End of the Line

As the title might suggest, this will be the very last post I'm gonna drop for this blog before I close it down. Not like its gonna ever be a popular blog but then again thanks to my readers and followers especially close friends whom dropped some very meaningful comments for me. (yes you know who you are) And even though I don't really reply to it, I just though you peeps should know that it really meant alot and from the bottom of my heart, thanks a lot.

As to why I'm closing it down. Well, I don't really see a need to post all my problems anymore, even if I do have now, I guess I'd rather just keep it to myself. For some reason, its either I'm getting bored of my problems or I don't know. Point is, I just found a way to run away from it?

Anyway, probably this has to do with me slowly getting acquainted or comfortable with being a quiet, invisible, nobody. At least all my life I have always being the "background" and even though it ain't a good feeling at all, it has been a part of my life so to speak. Its not like I havent tried being at least someone but its easier said then done, not least when you're that low on confidence. But like I said, I'm cool with it.

Of course, being a nobody does apply to many stuff (which I'm not gonna mention) and doing something about it sometimes ain't the best option. At least when you and everyone feels comfortable about your position, you wouldn't wanna ruin it just so you think you should let it out. Its kinda deep so I'll just leave it as it is for you to figure out.

Then again, my life... well, I have always been looked down upon. Not just me but I'm talking literally about my whole family. The worst part about it is that it actually comes from your relatives, your uncles, aunties whom usually gives you different treatment from the others. Yes, indeed I was the "stupid-est" among all my cousins, no doubt, and a young me was also pretty upset back then as I sometimes tried my best but my best isn't good enough.

Hence it brings me to my life-long goal which is really to proof everyone wrong especially my relatives. (YES, deep down inside I REALLY do hate them) Whether I can make it is of course another story but at least I know its all being inked inside of me and it just sets my path up right now.

Not least, I'm not sure what's gonna be happening in the future but basically thats how I feel strongly, Being a nobody and trying to proof everyone wrong. I'd probably even live or die by it. Who knows...

Lastly, apologies for the grandmother stories but thank god you've done with it as well. And if you'd bear with me just a few seconds, I'd like to close it with the final lines in my though. Hence, its done and thanks again.

"If only great hopes was promised behind these walls, I'd rather let it be forever hidden."