30th November 2012

There's just something about my birth date that I love so much but on the contrary, it has also been the worst day of my life for the past couple of years now. Not that everything goes wrong on the day but its more like me realizing that I'm a year older and yet I am still the same me. Still a failure if you're wondering... 

Somehow or rather, I always end up not being in the mood for my birthday. In fact I had actually hope it was just another normal day. I just don't handle attention, spotlights or even compliments that well. Seriously, try giving me a compliment and I would really struggle to give you any sort of positive reaction. 

It's 30th November 2012, it's my freaking birthday and I really feel down and awful. I got nobody to talk to and have literally shut myself out of the world just in case people starts thinking I'm weak and stupid. I wish I had someone who could listen without judging me.................