End of the Line

As the title might suggest, this will be the very last post I'm gonna drop for this blog before I close it down. Not like its gonna ever be a popular blog but then again thanks to my readers and followers especially close friends whom dropped some very meaningful comments for me. (yes you know who you are) And even though I don't really reply to it, I just though you peeps should know that it really meant alot and from the bottom of my heart, thanks a lot.

As to why I'm closing it down. Well, I don't really see a need to post all my problems anymore, even if I do have now, I guess I'd rather just keep it to myself. For some reason, its either I'm getting bored of my problems or I don't know. Point is, I just found a way to run away from it?

Anyway, probably this has to do with me slowly getting acquainted or comfortable with being a quiet, invisible, nobody. At least all my life I have always being the "background" and even though it ain't a good feeling at all, it has been a part of my life so to speak. Its not like I havent tried being at least someone but its easier said then done, not least when you're that low on confidence. But like I said, I'm cool with it.

Of course, being a nobody does apply to many stuff (which I'm not gonna mention) and doing something about it sometimes ain't the best option. At least when you and everyone feels comfortable about your position, you wouldn't wanna ruin it just so you think you should let it out. Its kinda deep so I'll just leave it as it is for you to figure out.

Then again, my life... well, I have always been looked down upon. Not just me but I'm talking literally about my whole family. The worst part about it is that it actually comes from your relatives, your uncles, aunties whom usually gives you different treatment from the others. Yes, indeed I was the "stupid-est" among all my cousins, no doubt, and a young me was also pretty upset back then as I sometimes tried my best but my best isn't good enough.

Hence it brings me to my life-long goal which is really to proof everyone wrong especially my relatives. (YES, deep down inside I REALLY do hate them) Whether I can make it is of course another story but at least I know its all being inked inside of me and it just sets my path up right now.

Not least, I'm not sure what's gonna be happening in the future but basically thats how I feel strongly, Being a nobody and trying to proof everyone wrong. I'd probably even live or die by it. Who knows...

Lastly, apologies for the grandmother stories but thank god you've done with it as well. And if you'd bear with me just a few seconds, I'd like to close it with the final lines in my though. Hence, its done and thanks again.

"If only great hopes was promised behind these walls, I'd rather let it be forever hidden."

Falling in love with Tomoi

What's Tomoi you might ask. Basically, Tomoi in most cases can be refereed to as Muay Thai or Thai Kick Boxing and I for one has been in training for slightly more than a year now. Never would have known I would be that into martial arts but I guess a part of me which wanted to be fitter and tougher kinda led me into this. I mean why not, considering I'm only paying RM60.00 a month for at least 8 classes a week with access to the gym equipments! Call me cheap but comparing to joining Fitness First or any other fitness centers which has a damage of RM140 (at least), I'd say awesome deal to this! (yes, Chinese people are known for their cheapness as well)

So yea with some spare to spent, I've also decided to join my company's gym (on per walk in basis) for RM15 per entry. And yes I'm being a bit too obsessive with being fitter that I'm even using Creatine pills now for more output and faster recovery.

Besides being caught up in the act, I've also been following the Muay Thai world for quite a bit nowadays mainly watching the new reality TV series The Challenger Muay Thai (quiet brutally awesome) and also visited Muay Thai competition in KL just recently. No pictures to show for it thought but it was really brutal. As in you see people getting elbowed in the head, getting kicked in the ribs while some even getting knocked out cold on the mat.

Of course, you don't really have to go for intense fighting competitions out there. And for myself, I'm just learning for self defense, physical training and also the art of it.