What makes you happy?

What makes you happy? A question I asked myself once before I went to bed. Lying face up facing the white ceiling was I going into deep thoughts of my where I stand now. Of course, in this case I was talking about my love life which hasn't been anything close to what everyone is enjoying out there.

Of course, the ugly truth is... I haven't had a girlfriends since secondary school days. Part of it is also cause I'm shy, don't talk too much, not the most attractive out there either and definitely not humorous at all. Now I have been watching "Modern Family" (into Season 2 now) and like what the old guy with a young super hot Columbian wife says, "the trick to getting a girl is, you either be rich, be powerful or be funny". In this case, I'm clearly none of it hence you'd probably have a clear picture of me now.

Anyway, I have been single all my life with the exception of one short spell I had with a girl which was probably too short to be even counted as a relationship. I failed in many times and many ways in getting a myself a partner as well. They say as long as you have the heart, don't give up then you will succeed but yea right, we all know that only happens in some stupid love story you watch in the movies. It doesn't fucking happen like that...

Having said that, if you ask me now, I'd probably tell you that I'm not sure if I want to be in a relationship anytime soon. Right now, I know I can't be funny hence I'm only focused on getting rich. Without the riches I don't really see how I could get a girlfriend. Like seriously, I might be polluted with my thinking but yea that's how I see it going. Either I get rich or I'm gonna die alone. At least now I don't expect anything to really happen in my love life which is a good distraction to keep away...

But of course, now the pressure is on to get rich...